Newsletter #78, by Ashish Kalawar (23 March 2015)

Samarpan Online Group Meditation Newsletter

TOPIC FOR THE WEEK – My First Anubhooti at Samarpan Goa Ashram

|| Jai Baba Swami ||

Experienced my first anubhooti (spiritual experience) on 24-Dec-2013 at Samarpan Goa Ashram.

I was working for very good MNC company with very good salary in UK since 2009. For me year 2013 was little bit different than expected. I have lost my interest in technical field and gain more interest in spiritual aspect.

I have started reading more spiritual books and video on YouTube. I have also attended online Inner Engineering program designed by Sadhguru (Isha Foundation, Coimbtore in UK. I was so happy and can’t put my feeling in words when I came to know that I am soul after attending Inner Engineering session. I was not having any anubhooti but just by knowing that “I am soul” I was very happy.

My Wife was Practising Samarpan meditation and she registered my name for Goa IR-2013 event. I was keen to meet Sadhguru in Coimbtore and to experience para atma instead of attending Goa IR.

Myself and my wife came to India and I went to Coimbtore alone meet/see sadhguru. I have spent 5 days in Isha foundation, Ashram but didn’t see sadhguru single time. I got little bit disappointed because I didn’t experience anything but got opportunity to learn about ashram environment. Then I took flight from Coimbtore to Goa for IR-2013 10 days event. I reached to goa ashram without any expectation.

On 22nd Dec, I saw Swamiji first time when he inaugurated dormitory area. Everybody was standing and looking towards Swamiji and I was thinking “he is very simple person and he doesn’t looks like guru also”.

There was panjabi lady who was just standing behind me and she was feeling uncomfortable during this inauguration process and she falls down. I vaguely remembered that Shailesh Muzumdar wife came coward and helped her but rest of the people didn’t come forward. I was thinking why this is happening when sadhguru is here and why people are not coming forward to help her and all junk thought started coming to my mind about place, guru. I told same thing to my wife but she advised me that keep thought process aside and experience energy.

On same day in evening time, I was talking with Richard Blincow (from UK) and he told me that he felt something or some energy. I said I didn’t feel anything and I was OK. This is the first time I experienced that people from different countries were staying together under one roof.

Next day on 24th Dec 2014 Christmas Eve celebration was surprise for us. The Christmas Eve decoration was superb. Everybody was singing ” Shivkrupanada Swami NAMO namah” bhajan. I was sitting on ground and enjoying whole happy and cheerful environment. After some time, I started feeling so much heat in my body which is going out of my body. I started drinking water but no use. I saw Swamiji was walking and coming toward us but still he was vey far from us. I was not able to sit there and drank half the water bottle. I thought I should run away from this place but felt that somebody seize my body. I was not able to move my body parts and it locked down completely. I started feeling that someone is closing my eyes, mind was getting shut down slowly and after that 2-5 min I don’t know what happened I went state into trans.

When I opened my eyes , tears flow was unstoppable. I was crying like anything and Andrew Cantona (from Singapore) was telling me that it happens, most of us experienced similar thing so don’t worry. I felt that completeness sense for that 2-3 min but can’t explain in words. I have never experience this kind of thing in my life. My body is completely charged with full of energy and no tiredness, fully relaxed. I have experienced energy which was flowing through Swamiji.

This experience clears my wrong thought process about SatGuru, spirituality and created more trust, faith and devotion for Swamiji. Thanks to Swamiji for choosing me for this experience.

Ashish Kalawar