Newsletter #46, by Ruta Jannawar (12 May 2013)

Samarpan Online Group Meditation Newsletter

TOPIC FOR THE WEEK – Journey Towards Soul

From the child wood on words , with god’s grace, I always got what ever I want before I ask for it.

Next to the home there was a temple. Every morning use to start with temple bell. My mother was devotee of god. From the day I know, I have seen my mother doing “Bhakti”. I brought up in the typical Hindu culture. I was devotee of Lord Krishna. I still remember that I use to play Krishna’s role every year in Janma ashtami festival. My childhood went very cool, playing in the river…. , watching sun, moon, sky and birds with friends for hours n hours…., going every day to temple….. I always enjoyed being with nature and with animals…..

As a result may be, My approach to see the world was always positive. I always felt that life is very very simple and not to make it complicated…….Many problems came in the life but my approach to see the problem was very different. It was just “problem” for me as many measures it as big or small. For me it was always a “moment” Which comes and goes.

I remember one incident … My mobile which was very very expensive got lost. Every one worried so much. I said we will try to find it but without worrying. If I get I will be happy. if I don’t get I will be happy too. I always think only one thing ” Did I bring anything with me when I came to this world, no…. Then why I should get tensed when it lost. It was not mine. As I feel my happiness is mine and more valuable than that mobile. I can’t compromise on my happiness for any thing. Happiness is my gift from god to me and there is nothing in the world which can make me unhappy. That was the challenge I always use to give it to myself in all so called difficult situations.

First turn came to my life with my papa’s death. This was the first time I was very very sad. Here my real journey towards finding out truth of the life began. In 2004, I met to my first spiritual guru and real spiritual journey started. I came to know the aim of life is to get Moksha. My guru told that “saying VishnuSahastraNam- Thousand names of Lord Vishnu 3 times every day” will lead to Moksha. I believed it by heart and started saying it.

I too met many types of people. friends parents husband all use to say be careful Ruta, but for me there is no one in the world is bad. Bad is their qualities but not they. I always use to see good quality in them as every one in this world is born with at least one good quality. And we can love that person seeing that. I always felt that when we got a chance to create a beautiful world around us why to create hell out of it. ” let’s live and let other live” was my policy. There was one more thing here to say for my transformation. In 2003, I got a chance to do one course on life transformation which is world famous as “Landmark education”. They arrange 3 days seminar and that course again made my self more strong and came to the conclusion ” every thing Is possible if I think”. Only simple thing I have to do is think that it can happen and it will start happening.

Before I met Swamiji I use to convert my thoughts from negative to positive. Now after meditation came to know that there is not necessary to even convert it but just stop it. Now first negative thought comes then no positive thought and no thought comes as thinking is the process of body and I m not a body I am a soul then no thought. I Started practicing saying ” I don’t get any thought as I am not a body, I am a soul”. I repeat it from soul level for 15-20 minutes so that when ever I get any thought next this soul mantra will start getting on and then no thought and then only peace. It really works.

Education makes us strong in physical world but spiritual GURU teach us the skill to survive in the physical world and take us to destiny.

In Hindu culture, we have spiritual book called “Bhagvat” which has all Lord Krishna’s stories. I hear that from My Guru and since 2004, my consciousness use to be at the lotus feet of Lord Krishna. I always asked for mukti to lord but never imagined also that god can be one energy. My belief always was Lord krishna is the only god.

With guru’s grace and with power of guru mantra, achieved every thing in life. But question was still there. What’s next ? How to get moksha? I was not getting answers of many many questions……….I got every thing but still some thing was missing and what was missing I was not able to know. There was some emptiness but was not known. I tried to fill it up with social work…. But still that emptiness was there……felt I want to contribute some thing to world but what don’t know………which I wanted to contribute that it self was missing but what was that ….don’t know…. how to fill the gap…was big big question in life…where….when….how…..no answer….

Real journey towards soul started like that….

I came to UK 3 years back. Once in a year I visit India. I went to India this December 2012. My mother every day go to Samarpan center for meditation. I went to stay with my mom for few days. One day my 5 year old stayed with his papa in uncles house. I got chance to go to center with mom. I sat for meditation and experienced some vibrations and cold wave on my sahastrar chakra. It was very very pleasant and new experience for me.

I always experienced the presence of GOD every where but this kind of GODs experience was very new for me. But I felt I was waiting for this anughuti since long. I felt Lord Krishna forwarded me to Swamiji.

I wanted to understand what is that anubhuti is and started reading Swamiji’s books. As my mother got connected with Swamiji since long she had almost all Swamiji’s books. Only 3-4 days were there for us to leave India. I took himalaya ka samarpan yog part 1 to 3 with me to UK. After coming back to UK I was very eager to know everything. I started getting up in the morning and sitting up for Meditation. I felt Lord Krishna wanted me to sit. I started mediating by my own way, just concentrating on top of the head.

Then I read sadhak margadarshika book and started mediating simply. I thought let me use the mantra and try. For me every thing was Lord Krishna. I use to think, for me god is Lord Krishna, how can I shift and start praying Swamiij?? what to do ? I was not knowing how to chant mantra. But Some how I started. When I use to chant mantra, I use to feel vibrations and use to go to thoughtless state automatically. In Parallel I started Reading books. With book, I got connected with Swamiji’s energy. I experienced the presence of all the GOD inside Swamiji. I use to get the message from inside that Lord Krishna and Swamiji is one only ……the outer cover is different. I slowly started shifting towards Swamiji. Now in meditation, I started seeing Swamiji and all Guru’s. I started hearing Guru mantra from inside.

I use to work in the Semiconductor company that time. I use to get very little time to read the book but I use to feel that I should only read book all the time. When I use to read that book, I always experienced the experience that Swamiji experienced in the Himalayas. I got all the anughuti through book and got connected with Swamiji and all the GURU’s GURU by consciousness. My consciousness use to be in the book and himalaya always. And i dont know when i got connected to universal power…….. Initially every day in the mediatation I use to see kaivalya kumbhak yogi and then Swamiji’s subtle enery statue and use to get lot of energy from it. I always experienced the vibration of all the GURU’s GURU. Because when I use to read the book, I use to go there by chitta and as I use to go there, I use to feel vibrations. I use to sit 30-40 minuted in the morning. I wanted some thing from meditation ….may be mukti….and thats why was not getting that satisfaction from meditation.

Before I met Swamiji I use to convert my thoughts from negative to positive. Now after meditation came to know that there is not necessary to even convert it but just stop it. Now first negative thought comes then no positive thought and no thought comes as thinking is the process of body and I m not a body I am a soul then no thought. I Started practicing saying ” I don’t get any thought as I am not a body, I am a soul”. I repeat it from soul level for 15-20 minutes so that when ever I get any thought next this soul mantra will start getting on and then no thought and then only peace. It really worked.

I got many anubhuti’s but still felt something is missing. Then one day suddenly I got the message from inside that surrender your self to Swamiji. From that day I started doing Swamiji’s dhyan surrendering myself completely …….as a result started going to samadhi state automatically. I surrendered my self completely to swamiji. I felt Lord Krishna also forwarded me to him so that I can meet today’s GOD and get Mukti. I started experiencing the bliss/cold waves through out the body and did not know how 2-3 hours went off in meditation. Swamiji gave me Jivan Mukti in 3 months of meditation. That also would have happened in a moment I believe but I took that much time to surrender my self to Swamiji. Swamiji took all my karma’s. I also worked on me as Swamiji use to tell. When I felt I am getting angry, I started surendering my anger to my father and he really took away my anger.

Every thing happened because of you and Swamiji…….you gave me the worlds best gift………everything happened quickly because of collectivity of soul……..I don’t have words to express the feeling ….but I am sure you will feel it after reading this……….as it is from soul to soul….

and we are connected since long……

” There is only a moment between you and GOD, Surrender your self to SATHGURU, GOD will appear next to you” I pray to GURU that let every human being on the earth get the chance to take a bath in the anubhuti’s sea leaving body outside….

Jay Baba Swami…

Ruta.